Hoping that all of you moms had an awesome Mother’s Day!

For many years this day used to make me sad beyond measure as I longed to be called “mom.” I have never struggled with jealousy or comparison, but I have battled with deep sorrow when it comes to not having my own kids. There are still days when the sadness will rise up out of nowhere and absolutely break me, but it is no longer THIS day.

I love seeing all of the pics of moms and kids, young and old! I love the cheesy grins on your children’s faces as they proudly pose next to you, It’s the freakin’ BEST. And all of it makes me feel JOY. Yes, joy! A fruit of the spirit along with love, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Over the past couple of years I have prayed for these fruits to be overwhelmingly evident in my responses to whatever life throws at me. I prayed for God to nurture these things in my soul and to rise up, to be real. I prayed that my natural human responses would be blown away by supernatural responses. I have a naturally joyful spirit, but I wear my heart on my sleeve and in the past this day would be full of insincere smiles and random tears. I had no control over it.

But today I sincerely REJOICE WITH THOSE WHO REJOICE! Especially in this one thing that pained me. I feel free and peaceful and just want to celebrate along with my friends and family. Your joy sparks my joy like rocket fuel! And it does not in any way add to my pain. I thank God for nurturing my heart. And I’m over here cheering on all of you awesome moms – like a MUTHA!!